Insomniac?

          Here I sit, in bed awake, well past the witching hour. Another interminable night. Unable to get comfortable, unable to sleep, unable to keep still. I am really glad I am not the person sleeping with me. I am tired of being unable to sleep, tired of trying to keep still, relaxed, when I really want to thrash about, rather tired of being me. I know part of the reason I can't sleep, but it helps me not at all. In fact, I might as well stay awake now. As it will be time to get up, and get ready to go, in about an hour, and a half. Oh dear, it's going to be a long day too, being so tired, and so much to do.

         By now, not only am I exhausted, irritated, and frustrated. I am also aching. My hips ache, my knees ache, and my shoulders. In fact nearly all the bits that bend, are having a whinge. Having already taken pain killers a couple of hours ago, there is little else I can do. I could get a heating pad, if it weren't securely shut away in a suitcase in the bottom of the wardrobe. If I weren't staying at my brothers house, where everyone is asleep, and I can't start making a noise. I am doing my best to keep still, and silent, in a space not mine. I could have a shot of brandy, that helps sometimes. Especially on those nights when all else fails, but I have none left. I could rub some deep heat, or the like into the joints, but that too, is nowhere I can find it. You can see why I am out of patience, and frustrated. Nothing, is as, or where it should be. In fact, I have had it! Game over, I lost! what a shame. Never mind. Sometimes, what you can't change, you have to live with. Bad luck me...

       You see, I only arrived this afternoon. With just enough time to unpack everything, and repack some stuff afresh, in another suitcase. That's  because, this morning, in about an hour now, I am off to have a weeks break, away. In the sun, no work to do, no one to visit. Only lazing by the pool, in the sun, and eating good food. Bliss.....That is, of course, if I can get through this night without smothering myself to death, through pure stress, and tiredness. I thought that sitting up, and taking my mind off not sleeping, and the pain, might help. Unfortunately, everything is aching bit to bust. I feel as if I might spontaneously combust if something doesn't change soon.

          This night brings to mind, the many other nights when sleep eludes me. I am an insomniac. As was my father before me, and my son after me. With a good smattering of friends, and other family members similarly afflicted. It is not a pleasant way to spend the night. Although, of course, it can be, if you have the full run of the house, and your stuff around you. Then, it can be broken into sections. Trying to sleep, taking remedies, when you can't get off.  Or, a wander about, or a cup of tea, a. Hot pad to relax you. Even a bit of TV, or, the Internet without fear of waking others.

The trouble is, tonight, my not sleeping, is too restricted. Too bound by having nothing around me, handy to help me cope. Not to pass the time, or to help me sleep. 

           Well, to nights problem is just about solved, as I have to be on the move, and on my feet soon. Getting ready to travel, in about half an hour. From here, in the car for an hours journey to the airport. Thence, to the park, and ride, a shuttle bus to the terminal, check in, and wait for the plane to load, and take off.  Hopefully, I can then sleep for a few hours.

           That's if they don't keep waking me up to eat, or babies crying, or duty free. As I am sure you realise, I shall not be the happiest passenger flying out this morning...

           Sleep well, everyone. As for me, I am pinning all my hopes, on a comfy lounger, in the sun..hope I don't snore...