Freewheeling through the Universe....

        Now, my beliefs are well known by you all by now. It's the certain knowledge that a positive outlook is the only one worth it's salt, and the process of creating your own reality has to be ongoing, no matter what. These two, are linked, yet separate entities, or belief systems. Neither one is easy to maintain, nor are the results always easy, or obvious. Life, that hoary old chestnut that has us in its clutches, despite our best efforts or intentions, can be messy, frustrating and definitely exhausting.

         Yes, it's hard to keep upbeat when your life force is low either through illness, or daily trails and tribulations. Worse, is when you battle both together....a situation I found myself in during the last three months or more. Every time I got knocked down, I forced myself back up on my feet. Every time I took a direct hit from fate, luck, call it what you will, I mentally and emotionally reversed it. Every time another aspect of ill health knocked me off my feet, I swayed with the punches, determined to overcome, to bounce back. Even those times it had me in its jaws, or pressed under it, its knee on my throat as I struggled. Throughout, I maintained and built on my vision of the perfect life for me. One where I was in the best position both financially and physically. Not only to enjoy a good life for myself, but where I could best help my loved ones and wider humanity. My greatest wish, to be a  philanthropist.

         All extremely noble ideal, yet maybe also a little selfish in wanting a life free of the financial , and health pressures so prevalent in my daily life of recent years. For those of us reaching into the third age, with some trepidation. Dealing with ageing and the pressures that come along with it, are often daunting. I can add to that, frightening and exhausting. Like many, I have given my youth to bringing up my children, to making a living as a solo mother who now has few resources of any kind to fall back on. My main joy is that my children are well and healthy. The rest cannot be helped, or changed, only dealt with. They are, nevertheless pressures to be dealt with, either by turning them around, or by building on them as best I may. Using the Universe and it's unlimited largesse....I maintain, to create my own version of Utopia.

          Of course I can only truly speak for myself, for my own experiences. Yet I am a sensitive, and an observer of human behaviour from way back. Both in cataloging my own feelings and observing those of the wider society around me. I have a background in Education, Philosophy and the spiritual/psychic levels of awareness influencing our awareness. A  prolific reader, as well a people watcher, I note both writers and society at large trying to come to terms with the changes in the physical aspects of ageing, as well as how we are perceived in society at large.

           There is a saying, "you don't know what you have till it's gone!". Why, there are even many songs about it. I find unhappily, it's only too true. I never realised I was perhaps, attractive. Or, how the opposite sex reacted to, and treated me.....until they stopped doing so. It was like suddenly becoming invisible, it really took a while to get my head around. I could speak, without being heard. I could pass through a room without notice. Well, that's not the end of the world, it also has it's advantages. Yet it required a lot of adjustment, generated an experience of having had a good slap in the face, undeserved. However, now that I am ageing even more, the face I see before me is no longer recognised. To the extent I say, "who is that woman always following me?". Worse of course, is the other physical changes, the lack of energy, much of it through ill health which dogs me periodically. However, off I go on a tangent as usual, at least the mental facilities are no worse than most..... The mind keeps leapfrogging around, lucky me.

           Underlying all of these ruminations, is the fact that despite all of the above, I have struggled with continuing within my belief system. That ideal of positive thought, creating you own reality and related thought systems. The very things I have written about so much. All blasted, unrecognisable for long periods of time. Never mind, do not despair, all is not lost. Nothing is ever lost, as I said, if you're knocked down, get up. If you're lacking in energy, or good health, begin visualising better again. This freewheeling through the Universe does not have to continue indefinitely. Cannot be allowed to continue any longer. 

            So......I begin again, to visualise, to speak the positive pictures already established deep in my psyche. I reiterate "I AM! I AM healthy...

                                       I AM energetic.....

                                       I AM an entrepreneur......

                                       I AM Safe and happy......

                                       I AM abundance of all good things.......

             In fact, I AM anything and everything my heart and soul desires.....there is not reason why not.

             There my friends you have it...no more freewheeling through the Universe. Self help really does begin with self, for only then can it grow and spread through everyone close to you. It's exactly as they say on the Flight information informercials.....before helping others, ensure your oxygen supply is fitted first. For if you cannot breathe, or operate, your ability to help anyone...is nill.

             Have a good day out there, and enjoy every opportunity and every minute of your life.