Hiatus.......

         What to call this blog? I had few ideas, eventually hiatus seemed the obvious choice. As this is what I feel I am in at the moment. After thinking for most of last year that it was the year for major changes, now I find myself in this year still, to some extent, in limbo. Indeed, well into this year with too many questions still unanswered. Is that a bad thing, no not necessarily. Only me, as usual, being impatient, wanting everything yesterday. Nothing wrong with that I say.

           Those who read me, who read these bogs or who read my 'where in the world' blogs will know that major changes have taken place as far as location is concerned. Obviously, within me, in my soul if you like, I still feel the kind of changes I expected are yet to reveal themselves. It's strange because so many people I meet feel exactly the same way. As if they are waiting for something. That building feeling of expectation....then of impatience and curioriosity, waiting for the wave to hit. As it must, as it will!

                           Touching something special 

             Of course I have met some people who are content, or who say they are. Perhaps that is not quite the right word, content. I did not feel they were content, but their life is not mine. I can only change me. They say they are settled, they are not actively looking for change. Without denigrating them in any way, I feel they are not as satisfied with their life as they mainain. Perhaps from my lofty heights as a writer, perhaps I am being judgemental.  Hope not, but to me they appeared to be resigned. Settled into a routine which is one they believe is the best they can hope for. "It's a good life" one of them said to me, I'm not unhappy....no, not unhappy. Me, well.....I'm like the duck, tranquil to look at, but under the surface my legs are kicking frantically to keep afloat. I intend to have more than that. To have a situation where I don't have to keep kicking to merely survive.

          Ah yes, I hear you say, or some of you say, you are dissatisfied with everything, you want too much. Well, perhaps I do, but if you never want more, what are the chances of getting it? Not very high I would think. I also read today that all you have is 'today'. That if you spent all your time looking forward, or backwards come to that matter, then you are missing the now. Of course no one intends to do that. I certainly don't. Although I can quite see how that might happen, it's not what I'm talking about. I am saying I am not satisfied with the status quo. That I have unfulfilled ambition. I want more than saying I am ok, I'm not unhappy.

           So folks, however you do it, gird your loins and build the picture of your life. Just the one you want, with every tee crossed and every nuance spelled out. There is no reason why you should not acheive it, and every reason that you will! For me, I have my visualisation, that's the way I work. I build a folio of perfect scenarios, then I put energy into them. I look at them, I visualise them when I don't actually see them. I re- look at them when they picture dulls,  I know, they are mine. Let no doubt in, have absolute faith that everything you desire is yours. If you investigate this method, you will find many famous people who have achieved the lifestyle and the inner harmony they want like this. Many, many more lesser known people too of course.

            I know it works, already in the space of a Year I have changed so much in my life....now for the rest. Your life really can go from being difficult to being fantastic in the course of a split second. I am in hiatus, I am not sure exactly how or when, I just have to keep reiterating that I AM.

             I am everything I want to be..on every level.

             Power to you all my friends.......

              May the light shine on your every step.......