Knock backs won't stop me

       We all get them sometimes, I know. Often out of the blue, and often totally undeserved. Ok sometimes, we may have deserved some sensure, but never annihilation that is a true knock back. Knock backs hit you hard, they take the wind out of your sails, and they stop you dead in the water!

        There, think it covered pretty much how they make you feel. Lower than sewerage, ain't that right? Most of us being tender creatures inside the wordly shell we wear, these strikes against us, or something we have done, strike us cruelly down. It knocks our confidence, our certainly with the direction we were heading, and the results we thought we had, no longer seem so clear cut! In short, it's a bummer. Or, is it only me?............no! Of course not. It's only that some people develop a shell, some get to the point they don't feel it anymore, a few, never did.

         Me, the eternal optimist, the perennial support for family, friends, aquaintances, or who ever seems to need my words of wisdom, or helping hand......or heart, get squashed. Yes, really severely flattened. Perhaps it's only the Universe swatting back my big head, that I dare to think I can be of help to others. Only ensuring I don't get too big for my boots. Perhaps telling me I have been carried away with ideas, or projects again. Telling me to PAUSE, take stock, see if I am on the right path or not. Perhaps consider stopping? Take a change of direction perhaps.

        Yes, well after my last knock back yesterday, that is where I have been balanced all day. Trying my dambdest to recalibrate, to re affirm all of my positive aims. To like, and approve of ME! Not to accept this new, and unflattering assessment so harshly handed out! All of my insecurities flower immediately, making of me a giant bouquet of weeds. Not much good to anyone...and certainly not a pretty picture. Only pretending to be a beautiful bouquet. Ah, how stupid of me....again. Yes the label of 'stupid' given to me so regularly whilst growing up, still lives, somewhere deep within.

          Here's the thing though, you can't let it settle, you cannot let it ignite a flame. A fire to burn, blacken, or make ugly everything you are, and everything you intend. Quash it, cover it with love, smother it with confidence and new affirmations.

           Say...I AM WORTHWHILE.

            I AM LOVE. Whilst engulfing the world in it.

           Repeat, I AM ABUNDANCE OF ALL GOOD THINGS.

            Generate peace and love, send out your feelings of confidence, and abundance, cover the world and all it's people with a thick blanket of love. Only ensure you include those who struck you with the words, or actions that knocked you back.

             You know your intentions, as I know mine. No harm meant, no ulterior motive that the world all too quickly accuses you of. If what action is ascribed to you was foolish, or not properly thought out, or if you were nieve in some way. Nothing was malicious, nothing designed to deceive, or annoy. Therefore, do not accept others mistaken, violent reaction. Deny it in whatever way is necessary, then dismiss it.

            Already, I have lost part of a night, and a day, knocked back, imbalanced, hurt, confused, trying to work out what my fault was, what my mistake, and how did I not see. Why should I. No, I say again,         

             I AM WORTHWHILE

             I AM A GOOD PERSON, who only tries to do the best I can...always.

             I AM ABUNDANCE

             I AM LOVE

             I AM !

             No more is necessary,  I AM