On line crap

Having spent the best part of two days trying to fill forms on line, I am now rope-able. Why are any forms you need to fill, so l,one, and so complicated. Is it me, stupid, or are they really difficult, and obtuse.

I tried to set up another blog. I want to talk about something different, other than writing, and it associated difficulties. Impossible to do, even though I filled in the form again, and again. It would not take, and is still not set up. Argggg.

Today, I tried to join a web site for authors. What a fiasco. I don't believe I know the first thing about how this blasted Internet works, or why I cannot work it. I filled, I was refused. I filled again, I was refused. I filled differently, still refused. I tried many times, until my neck is a mass of tension, and head is about to split.

For now, it has beaten me. Through it all, I am aware of how long it has all taken. 

That my Mother is at home waiting for my company again. I am there because she has not been too good, and is getting very old. We know time is limited for her now. But, my god, I am so bad at this. I have so many things I need to do, with no Internet connection there, I must come out. I have had a full, and solitary week there, left in charge.i am ready to climb the walls already. What a bad daughter I must be. I find this so hard.

 Perhaps if she could hear me, it would help. But everything is shouted, and still she does not hear me. She long ago refused all hearing aids. WHat can I do, except go back now, and settle in again. Into the dreadful heat, the shouting, and the booming of the T.V. Hoping, that soon my partner will come, and give me someone to actually talk to without shouting, or pantomiming.

I hope I can do this for another few days at least........